winterlive | [ let's play a game ]

it's called "let's pretend".

let's pretend that demons tell the truth sometimes. let's pretend that sam's death and resurrection wasn't an accident of fate, but something significant. let's pretend that all the rest of the psykids were irrelevant, decoys, and that's why everybody that ever knew THEIR mothers is still alive.

let's pretend that when ruby said "antichrist", when the jesus freak said "adversary", they weren't just making up fun words.

let's pretend that the person who holds dean's ticket isn't some shadowy figure we've never met, but rather that when red was making her speech about how her boss wants dean's soul, bad, and isn't gonna let it go, she was only talking about one guy. her boss isn't as cuddly as she is, i can tell you that.

and let's pretend that dean IS messy, sloppy, needy. warm. that he knows TV instead of books, that he likes to be silly sometimes and gross and dumb and unbearably lovable. let's pretend that dean is human.

and let's pretend that, one day real soon, sam isn't gonna be anymore.

there now. wasn't that fun?

i may not be right about all of the above, but it certainly was nice to think about. might make a good fic one day. on a less over-the-top note, i think sandy did just fine. the monster of the week was good, the meaningful silences between the boys all through the episode was better. cathryn humphris is winning, as far as i'm concerned.

i have gone so far past squee that i'm stuck in quiet contemplation, people.

eta: i don't know how i could possibly have forgotten this part, but. okay. is it me, or is more and more of jared bleeding through into sam? there was a line where sam was trying to come up with something it could be, and wound up with yeah, i got nothin'. i feel like that's very jared, but at the same time i feel like that's jared being more comfortable in the role of sam, in the trade of acting. i feel, watching those two walking together on screen, that i can practically SEE the relationship hovering in the air between them. it's just. there's nothing like it on television, god.