Just can't say 'yes'! more loudly. I loved that Dean was so...cool. Calm. Ready to do and be just what his dad needed but still - *still* - a kid.

And i think, yes, the changes in John after this incident was mostly his horror at what *he'd* almost done - putting so much trust and expectations onto his very young son. I think after that he probably had his own nights of horrible, tearing guilt.

Did i want him to bite off a sob and hold out his arm and pull Dean into a hug? Yes. And maybe he did, half an hour later. But man - when you're freaking that your kid is almost dead, you *snap* - i've done it to poor Monstrous.

Nothing but love for this ep and these boys. *Nothing*.

I must go read the transcripts.