[ monogatari ]

[winterlive]

Monogatari
by danny



nc-17, jared/jensen, rps au

for the spn_j2_bigbang
art by joosetta
beta, edits and audiencing by traveller (until 3am today, no less)
additional beta and cheerleading by brandil and robanybody

Comments

[winterlive.livejournal.com]

mew. thank you. honestly, i wish i had better things to say that, because i know i'm gonna tell people "thank you" too many times. but it really means a lot that you like it, believe me.

[nu-breed.livejournal.com]

Oh I know what you mean. I hate responding to feedback because I always worry it doesn't diverge much from 'thanks'. It's all good. The story you've written is thanks enough for the feedback you're going to get, believe me.

♥

[nu-breed.livejournal.com]

Incidentally, I sat and surreptitiously reread the whole fic at work today and it did not lose any of its impact the second time around. This time there were actual tears, the scene where Ken sacrifices himself for Jared absolutely killed me and the fight scene after the marriage consumation made my chest ache.

This story has absolutely consumed me, to the point where it's all I've thought about all day today and I kept getting images in my head that would distarct me for HUGE periods of time. I have the feeling I will be rereading and rereading a heap more times than just two. I may be slightly obsessed ;)

I'd be really interested to know how long you had the idea for this and how long it took to write it, if you felt like sharing. It feels like the sort of thing that would take YEARS to conceive and implement, so the fact that (I'm assuming) it has been months instead, to me is mindblowing.

[winterlive.livejournal.com]

it honestly was as simple as talking to cee one day in email, and musing out loud that i'd have to write something soon for j2 big bang. i asked her to give me three words each to describe the boys and she'd been reading japanese poetry lately, so the words she gave me were, like... willow, sun, iron. and i laughed, and i said, "samurai au!!" and she said "awesome!" because she encourages me on any deranged tangent i get on. bang. monogatari.

i love rps au as a genre. using the samurai, and japan, with that new flavor, i get to explain one more time how i think that jensen is very dedicated to his job, and jared has the potential to be an AMAZING actor if he can just learn from jensen's discipline and self control. i get to talk about how the new levels of fame they're under must affect them, how they're beset on all sides but they keep going, despite crazies who toss themselves at the hot boy on tv now and then. that's why i'd never publish it as it is - it loses all of that in translation, all that stuff goes right out the window.

i can only imagine what it must be like when the two of them fight. i mean, in real life, on the set. the entire world must shake. PAs hiding in the makeup trailer. kim trying to play peacemaker, because you can't have these two fight. they are the magic in this show, how they operate together. they can't fight. can't. it must hurt your soul when they do.

anyway. that might be more detail than you wanted. :D

[trinity_clare]

*threadcrashes*

...Now I'm going to have to read the whole thing again (not like I wasn't going to anyway) with that parallel in mind. Nifty.

[nu-breed.livejournal.com]

i get to explain one more time how i think that jensen is very dedicated to his job, and jared has the potential to be an AMAZING actor if he can just learn from jensen's discipline and self control.

Okay, WOW. Just... WOW. I hadn't even thought about that parallel. You've got me gasping here, because holy shit, woman. That is GENIUS.

they are the magic in this show, how they operate together. they can't fight. can't. it must hurt your soul when they do.

Aaaaaaand there I am tearing up again. It broke me reading about that one fight they had (the one that Jensen talked about at Asylum) and you know, I think it would play out exactly how yours did: Jared, being loving and giving and full of life would be extremely angry, like a hurricane. Jensen would be calmer, would try to make him see reason and I think that would make Jared more angry and perhaps cruel. I don't want to think about that at all. It does hurt, doesn't it?

anyway. that might be more detail than you wanted.

Thanks for sharing all of that with me and it's definitely NOT more detail than I wanted! It's always fascinating to talk with writers about their process and the characters' motivations etc. and particularly when it's a story that one is particularly connected to (as I feel completely connected to yours).

I don't know if I can ever thank you enough for sharing this and allowing people to come on this completely amazing journey along with you and your boys. *hugs*

[winterlive.livejournal.com]

i put a bit more detail into the post i just made on this subject, but as you've replied here i will take the opportunity to thank you here as well. <33333

i love when people get it, y'know, when they really understand. and i love to know what they took from it, too - sometimes it's things i didn't even realize when i was writing it. so, yes! talking is good!! :D